Oxygen

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83: arrival

Serious little gentleman walks in checks in
Sits patiently through hurry hurry masks and wires

 

94: mask on

A comfortable in and out while we do puzzles,
put mouths where Mr Potato’s nose would like to be.

 

96: mask on

Pointing out the target reached and Mummy mask off
And finally some food now please and sips of drink

 

90: mask off

Eat and greedily eat and chat and gulp down drink while
Beep beep beep beep beep

 

88: mask off

BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP

 

86: mask off

Too long ignored, your ribcage heaves
and you talk. in bursts. of two.

 

97: mask on

Mask on watch TV and mask on do some sums and
mask on colour Peppa Pig in bold and violent red.

 

93: mask on

In sleep your peaceful resting face with green elastic tight
then sleep disturbed with slipping mask and slipping numbers

 

98: mask off

Unplug yourself for toilet trip slow slow wash hands
and amble back then show off your amazing score

 

95: mask off

The baseline and the path to home, the chart is ticked
and meds in hand you skip delighted to the door
A buzz a click and out you run to freedom and fresh air

Birth Nostalgia

My son was in hospital for a few nights recently. It was the same hospital where I had both the kids and I found myself feeling curiously nostalgic, especially as my daughter’s 2nd birthday was imminent.

Fond Memories of Pain

It was horrendous
And the pain overwhelming
And I thought many times:
Does the gain really weigh up
Against this agony?

Then why do I feel nostalgia
As I squeak along the floor of this corridor?
This corner, this lift,
Where I was doubled over lowing
Like a cow as you pushed lower
To make a swift entrance into the here and now.

The sign that says “Delivery Suite”
Fills me with a warm sweet glow
Of love and remembered love:
This is where you meet a whole new person
Who is you and him but not you or him at all.

Who cares about pain when after all
That straining and pushing and the swearing,
The blame: “Never touch me again!”
You get to hold that feather-weight
And watch a soul unfold?